Keeping It Real Monday (8-28-17)

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This is pretty much me, with getting out of the car while my seatbelt is still on way more than saying and doing smart stuff. Who’s with me? I may seem like a capable, responsible adult but sometimes I just don’t know. For example, me and curbs are best friends. I can’t stay away from them when I drive. I fumble over what I’m going to say 90% of the time. Writing I can do but getting the words that I want to say out of my mouth is another story. And let’s talk about coordination. There is a reason I don’t play sports. But you know what, sometimes I get something right. And when I do I don’t feel quite so awkward and incapable. I try to hang on to those moments and let go of the rest.

My friends, hang on to those good moments when you do something smart and brilliant. Don’t focus on the idiot things we all do sometimes.

Have a wonderful week.                                                                                                                Love,                                                                                                                                               Kendra

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Enough Monday (8-21-17)

Good morning,

How are you today my friends? Hopefully great. And if not great then at least well. 
Do you ever feel like you aren’t doing enough? Like all your efforts just aren’t measuring up? I often feel like this. My house just isn’t clean enough. My family isn’t eating healthy enough. I’m not teaching my children enough. My husband doesn’t get enough of my time. I don’t have enough time in the day. I’m just not doing enough. Can you relate?

Recently I was praying to know what Heavenly Father would like me to do. Who I could help, who I can show love and kindness to, also, to be a better person. To know how I can do more. How can I be enough of. I was prepared to feel a prompting to help someone, do something or change someway. Instead, the thoughts that came to my mind were the opposite. 

“Keep doing what you are doing. You’re family needs you. They need what you are doing. Don’t stop. Keep going, keep working and improvement will come.”

I felt, for the first time, that my efforts were enough. My family is getting enough of my time. I am teaching my children enough of what they need to succeed. I am helping others enough. My efforts are enough to do good in this world and in my life. 

Do you remember the time I wrote about being worthy? That we often don’t feel worthy of receiving love, of being happy, of achieving our dreams. I think this goes hand in hand with being enough. I am not only worthy of love but I need to stop worrying because I am also doing enough to show my family love. 

This is hard for me to accept. I can acknowledge and it empowers me to think that I am worthy. But then I think, if I am worthy enough to be loved or to achieve my dreams then I am able to and need to work harder to receive those things. I am worthy of working to be enough. But in reality I am enough. I am doing enough to be worthy. I am worthy. I am enough. 

I want you to know that you are enough. You are doing enough. We are going to do and are doing great things because we are enough. 

You, my friend, are doing amazing things. You are enough. 

Love,
Kendra 

Great Monday (8-14-17)


Hello dear friends,
Do you ever marvel at the genius things other people do and say and come up with? I do. All the time. Just the other day I had another opportunity to marvel. This time it was at my own son. He came up with this quote,

 “Good is not good enough. Great is great enough.”

I asked him what it meant to him. He basically said we are always doing things that are good but we can be doing better. We can keep trying and making changes until we’ve done the best that we can and then it won’t be just good it will be great. 

I’ve been thinking about what Jackson said and I think he’s right. All this coming from my child who has struggled the most in school and has had the most personal challenges. I am happy and his teachers are happy (more like we are thrilled) when he can just get the work done. But Jackson isn’t happy with that. He wants to do it the best. That leads to more frustration because his ability in some areas is immense where his ability in other areas doesn’t come close. But the desire to do the best in all areas is equal. So here is a child who isn’t going to settle for good. He’s going to go and push and work for great. 

One of my favorite quotes says, 

Try a little harder to be a little better. -Gordon B Hinckley

I think this summarizes what Jackson was trying to tell me. We can do better. We can do and be more than just good. Make those little changes. Try again and again and again. 

But it’s hard and it can be scary. Why is it so hard and so scary? One of my sisters framed this quote for me, I think it perfectly answers my question. 

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. 

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. 

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous. 

Actually, who are you not to be?

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

And as we let our own light shine we unconsciously give other people the permission to do the same.”

Who are we not to be great? Jackson is amazing. You are amazing. We are amazing. We have the potential to be great. To make everyday great or at least better than the day before. We are powerful beyond measure. I truly believe that. And I believe that you are truly great. 

Love,

Kendra 

Back to School Monday (8-7-17)

Good morning friends,

My kids start school today. I’m excited and nervous for them. They are smart and capable, I know they can do hard things. They just have to learn that. 
I think I’m nervous and excited for myself too. I’m excited to do some of the things I haven’t been able to this summer with the kids constantly at home. I’m nervous about keeping things running smoothly. 

Being in a new house it’s easy to make and keep things clean and organized and to make promises of keeping things clean and organized. But in reality I probably won’t be able to do it. I’m trying to be ok with that. And to be ok that my plans, routines and goals might not be reached. Truthfully and if I’m being honest with myself they probably won’t. I’m trying to be ok with that too and to roll with the punches, to make changes and adjustments as I go. 

That is also what I’m hoping my kids will be able to do. Roll with the punches. Make changes and adjustments as they go. I am smart and capable. They are smart and capable. If we can learn together and learn to work together we can totally succeed. And by success I mean long term success. We are going to fail at times so we need to be learning from our many failures. I think that’s where I get stuck. I failed once so I’m a failure. Not true. I just have to make changes and adjustments and jump back at it. So much easier said than done. And so much easier to help my kids do that than it is to help myself do it. 

What do you do to keep yourself going through the little failures? How do you help yourself make changes and adjustments? What are some, or were some, of your back to school traditions? Will you help me in my commitment to roll with the punches, to change and make adjustments instead of dwelling on failing? 

Well, here’s to a new school year! Hang in there. It can be a long year but we can make it a good year. 

Love,
Kendra

My heart is full on this Monday (7-31-17)

Hi there,I am writing this email today with my heart full of gratitude. We moved this weekend and received an over flow of kindness. From babysitting to bringing meals, packing to unpacking, loading to moving to unloading, and cleaning, cleaning, cleaning. I am overwhelmed. There are so many good, kind people in this world and I am so blessed to know them. 

I’m siting here eating Cheerios and yelling at my kids to please watch the baby for just another minute and trying to hold back tears of appreciation. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Thank you dear friends, all of you. Each of you add meaning and joy to my life. Please know your worth because it is great. 

Love,

Kendra

Keep keeping on Monday (7-24-17)

Hi friends!I used to own an SUV that was super convenient for driving around lots of kids. I taught preschool and did a lot of field trips and kid swapping with other moms so those extra seats were really handy, until they broke. There was a little rubber piece that helped latch the rear seats to the car. These seats were always going up and down depending on if I was doing a Costco run and needed more storage space or if I was hauling kids and needed more seating. Well, this stinkin little piece of rubber broke on both seats in the very back and for the life of me I could not get those seats to latch which left them completely unusable. For months I tried to fix those seats. I used glue, screws, my own sheer force. I tried to buy new little rubber pieces but they only sold the entire seat which was $300 per seat. So I tried glue, screws and my own sheer force again. Nothing worked. Finally a day came when I needed those back seats. Preschool got out at 3:00 and kindergarten got out at 3:10. I had to take a little boy home from preschool and I was watching another friend’s son after school. There was no way I could take my preschool student home before picking up my son and my friends son from school. I needed those extra seats. And I was stressing over it. The night before the big kid swap I spent over an hour pushing and shoving those seats but no matter what I did I could not get them locked into place. I was sweaty and frustrated and decided to just go to bed and try again in the morning. I woke up early and went out to my car. I climbed in the back and said a quick prayer. “I need help. Now. I need these seats to work. My friends are counting on me and I need to keep their children safe. Please help me.” I opened my eyes and hesitantly went through the same steps of latching the seats that I had already done a hundred times without success. Miraculously, this time it worked. It only took one try to get those seats latched and usable. Let me tell you, I never unlatched them again. I was convinced it was a one shot miracle and if I flipped them up I would never get them down again. My day went smoothly. I got all kids where they needed to be without any problems and now I have a little reminder that prayer works. 

Yesterday my family got home from our ten day road trip. We drove up to San Fran and down to Santa Monica and back to Phoenix. There were seven of us, my family of 6 plus my husband’s 15 year old sister, in our cute little Ford Flex. We had a luggage carrier on the roof, we were filled to overflowing and we had a great time. I’m really so pleased with how amazing my kids were, especially the baby. We didn’t have any problems with our car or anything. I did get car sick driving to see the red woods but for me getting sick only once is quite an accomplishment. But now we are home and I don’t want to be here. Not only do I have piles of luggage and laundry to wash, clean, sort, fold and put away I also have piles of boxes all over my house, some full and some needing to be filled.  We are moving on Saturday. I’m excited about the house we are moving into but feeling a little depressed about getting there. I really don’t need any physical help there isn’t much I can pass off. I’m just tired and unmotivated. 

I read a scripture that said, “ask and it shall be given unto you.” I’m remembering the time I asked for the back seats of my car to be fixed and they were. So, I’m going to take a nap and when I wake up I’m going to say a prayer. I’m going to say, ” I need help. Now. I need to get my house packed up. My family is counting on me and my friends are coming to move us on Saturday but I need to get us ready. Please help me.” And I’m going to remember that one time after all I could do I finally asked for help and I got it. In the scheme of things my “help me now’s” are so insignificant. But isn’t it the small things that build up to make big things? So my small prayer to help my car has turned to a bigger prayer to help my house. Maybe one day I’ll remember this and it will help me get through something else. But until then, my friends, know that I love you. You are constantly in my thoughts and heart and prayers. Please know that you are not alone. You are amazing with something only you can do. Just keep on keeping on. And I will too. 

Love,

Kendra

Monday Changes (7-17-17)


Hello friends,

I am out of town road trippin’ it with my family. I saw this mural in San Fransisco and really loved it. 

“Be the change you want to see in the world.”

I’ve heard this quote before but seeing it painted on a huge wall in the middle of a busy city made it seem more powerful. It made me stop and think. If I want to see change I have to make changes in myself. 

Lately I have learned some of the many changes I need to make. Every one of these changes started with me seeing the fallacies of others. After I tried to figure out how to change others I realized that I need the change just as much if not more. And so I am trying. I see something that the world needs to do better and I see that I am part of the world and I need to do better. I need to change. I need to be the change. 
I hope I can change. I hope I can be the change. I hope you know I love you and care about you. 

Love
Kendra