What do you do when you are feeling down? Tired, exhausted, sad, lonely… just feeling down. What do you do to lift yourself back up?
I’ve been asking this of myself. Lately I’ve just been feeling “eh”. I’ve had some really rough days and I’ve had some good days but overall I just feel down. I’m going through my list of things that help; eating well, sleeping enough, exercising, taking my meds and vitamins, serving. I think all these things are helping but I’m just not where I want to be. I find myself asking “What’s the point? Why do I even try?”
I came upon this quote and it made me stop to think.
“Weave beautifully your small thread in the grand tapestry” -Gordon B. Hinckley
What is my small thread in the grand tapestry?
Individually my efforts to clean my house, teach my children, prepare good meals, speak kindly, show love, get up and get dressed are all small and seemingly insignificant. But at the end of the day if I put all of that together my day suddenly doesn’t appear so wasted. I don’t feel so useless.
Now the real challenge is remembering that and truly believing it when I’m in the thick of things. When it takes all I have just to take care of my family let alone myself or all the things I’m supposed to be doing.
As daunting as it appears I think the trick is to keep going. Keep trying. Keep doing. Maybe I’m moving slower. Maybe I’m not even getting to my to do list. Maybe I’m letting things slip. But I can’t give up. My thread, however small, is needed in the grand tapestry. And so is yours. Those days of feeling down will come. But so will days of feeling good. One day I will be productive and one day I won’t. Just try again, keep going. I’ll just keep telling myself that until I’m not feeling so down. And when a good day comes I’ll look back on the thread that I’m weaving and see that it really is making something beautiful.