Selfish Monday (11-13-17)

Hello my friends,
Yesterday I was in a class and we were talking about the importance of serving others and the reasons why we do it or should do it. I’m not trying to pat myself on the back when I say I honestly try to serve and help others often. I give friends’ kids rides to and from school. I make cookies and deliver them. I write this email in hopes of lifting someone’s spirits. I try. I really really try. The reason I do it is %100 selfish. I do it to feel better about myself. When I am in a dark place, when I am feeling down and sad, when it takes everything I have just to get up I try and do something for someone else. I send a text message or invite a friend to lunch. I offer to watch a friend’s kids. Why? I don’t do it to be thanked or praised. I do it because there is something about giving that changes the chemical balance in my brain. 

Depression is a daily battle for me. I have days and moments where I don’t feel right. I don’t feel good. There is darkness all about me and inside of me. There is a weight pulling me down. No matter what I do I cannot overcome that. I can exercise and eat well and listen to good music and drink lots of water and keep myself busy and take my meds and see my doctor. Those things help and make me functional but not one of those things has the ability to pull me out of that dark pit. The only thing that truly and without fail helps is to ask in prayer who I can help then to get up and go do it. After serving, after getting outside of myself, my head clears, the darkness lifts the weight lessens. I swear that doing something for someone changes the chemical imbalance in my head. 

Selfish. %100 selfish. 

Dieter F. Uchtdorf said, “By becoming the answer to someone’s prayer, we often find the answer to our own.” 

I believe that. 

He also said, “We have a responsibility to be sensitive to the needs of others and serve as the Savior did-to reach out, bless, and uplift those around us. Often, the answer to our prayer does not come while we’re on our knees but while we’re on our feet serving the Lord and serving those around us.”

As much as I want to go back to bed today I’m not going to let myself. I’m going to pray for help and then I am going to find someone to help. It is in no way noble, it is self preserving. I need to serve because something about it changes my thoughts and feelings and makes life livable. 

So my friends, have a blessed day. Be happy and kind and do something for someone. 

Love,

Kendra

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