Monday Goals (7-9-18)

Have you ever wanted something so bad you can hardly stand it? I have a goal I’ve been working on for awhile. I’m so close but there are so many little things that keep getting in the way. Trying to figure out how to make it work can be maddening. But this is a dream of mine and I’m determined to see it through. I have a vision of what I want to happen and have been working so hard to make it work. I think the biggest challenge right now is being patient and not rushing the end result. As much as I want to call it good enough and see it finished I also want it done right. And so the waiting is killing me.

I want to be a writer. I’ve been working on publishing a children’s book. I am so close to finishing. I’m hoping that in the next couple of weeks my book will be ready to purchase on Amazon. So hang in there with me and I’ll keep you posted when it’s done!

What goals do you have? Do you have a dream? Is there anything you are working towards? How’s it going for you? Mine has been so frustrating at times but exciting too.

Hope you have a wonderful week!




Living Monday (7-2-18)

Hi! How are you this week? I am feeling very grateful. Last summer at this time we were getting ready to move. And we moved around this time the summer before that. Moving is miserable, especially during an Arizona summer. I am thankful I don’t have to move this summer! As we get ready to celebrate the Fourth of July I am also grateful for this country and the freedoms I enjoy. I am thankful for my family and the life I live. I haven’t always wanted to live my life. There have been times when living has been too painful. Just existing hurt and I didn’t want to do it anymore. Thankfully I got help. I know there are people out there who are hurting. To you I say, you’re not alone. You have people who love you and want to help. I love you and I want to help. I am here for you. You are not alone!

If you know someone who struggles with thoughts of suicide here are some numbers to get help:

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline


Crisis Text Line

Text HOME to 741741

I love you all and pray for your happiness!



Monday Trek (6-18-18)

Last week I had an amazing opportunity to go with the youth of my church on a Pioneer Trek. It’s a simulation of what the Mormon pioneers experienced while crossing the planes to escape religious persecution and find freedom to worship how they may. This experience was for youth ages 14-18 year olds. We took four days to reenact the Mormon pioneers trek west. We left modern conveniences behind, dressed in pioneer clothes and pulled a handcart. The youth were put into “families” of about ten kids plus an adult “big brother” and an adult “big sister” plus a “ma” and a “pa”. They piled their belongings into a handcart and walked for 19.1 miles the first day. It was long, hard work. The kids were broken down and physically exhausted. After that grueling first day we filled them spiritually. We learned about the men, women and children who suffered and gave all to make their journey west. We learned why they made the sacrifice they did.

This was an amazing experience. I feel stronger and better for having participated in it. I feel stronger and better for knowing my heritage and knowing stories from the past. I feel it very important to learn each other’s stories. I think it brings us closer together. That is why I share my story and it’s why I want to know yours.

Thank you for always listening. Have a wonderful week.



Monday Angel (6-11–18)

My baby girl turns nine tomorrow. She is one sweet angel baby. She was born at a time when both our families were mourning. She was the little piece of heaven that we needed. We named her Lucy Dean. Lucy after my brother Luke and Dean after Damon’s brother Geoffrey Dean. Both our brothers had recently passed away. I like to think they kissed Lucy and sent her to us. She’s my connection to them. Happy birthday baby girl.

I hope you all have a wonderful week.



Comparing Monday (6-4-18)

Happy Monday!

I recently realized something and have been thinking a lot about it. I’ve realized that I am horrible at comparison. I am constantly comparing myself to others. I do it to make myself feel better (at the expense of tearing someone else down) and I do it to criticize myself and therefore tear myself down. It’s a lose lose either way.

I think it’s something we all do and I think it’s gotten worse with seeing everyone’s “perfect” lives on social media. We/I am terrible at this. I see my messy house and I think what a failure I am. I see someone’s perfect hair and I think how ugly I am. On the reverse, when I see something that’s not perfect I think how much better I am. This is a terrible way to live and to think. It creates such a negative inner

dialogue that leads to an unhappy life.

Wendy W. Nelson said, “it’s time to stop comparing ourselves to others. It’s time to put away those erroneous views of ourselves and others. The truth is we are not as hopelessly flawed as we think. And others are not as perfect as they appear.”

I also read a quote that says, “it is not what you are that holds you back, it is what you think you are not.”

Let’s stop thinking so little of ourselves. Let’s stop thinking so little of others. Let’s start seeing ourselves as not so bad. Let’s realize that others have as many struggles, or more, than we do. Let’s focus on the good. The good in ourselves and the good in others. We are not so horribly bad. All that really matters is that we are trying to be better today than we were yesterday. That’s it. As long as we are working and trying we are doing it right.

Let’s make today and this week great. Let’s throw our comparisons out the window and start thinking of how we can make this day better than yesterday.



Monday Gratitude (5-28-18)

Happy Memorial Day

I am driving home from my favorite place. We spent the weekend at Lake Powell. There is something about those red rocks pressed up against the blue sky and riding in the boat with the wind in my hair. It does my soul good to be enjoying God’s beautiful world.

Brene Brown says that you can’t separate the concepts of joy and gratitude because when people speak of one they always talk about the other.

I have to say I completely agree. When I am at lake Powell or on a walk or camping or hiking at at the park with my kids I feel so much gratitude, I love being in nature, and when I express that gratitude I feel joy.

Don’t we all feel joy when someone says they are grateful for us? Or when sitting around the table sharing what we are grateful for on Thanksgiving?

I always knew that I felt better when I expressed gratitude but I never put it together with joy before. But it’s true, that’s what makes showing gratitude so grand, we feel joy when we do it.

So, I am committing to writing down daily the things I am grateful for this week. Who’s with me? Let’s express more gratitude and feel more joy.